Saturday, May 21, 2016
Monday, May 2, 2016
An open letter to the man that broke my heart
To the man, that broke my heart,
I wanted to let you know that I owe you a thank you. Yes, you hurt me but that is life and in the long run, it is your loss. You are missing out on an outstanding, loyal and damn right awesome person. That choice is yours.
I wanted to thank you for dragging me out of the self-imposed exile I had put myself into the year before you came into my life. Thank you for being a friend to me and being hard on me at times. It was what I needed at the time. Thank you for making me realize that yes I am worthy of having happiness in my life.
I will always care for you more than I probably should but you helped save me at a very dark period of my life. I do not know if I would even be here if it weren't for you. Thank you.
I have had some time to think about things. I will be honest and open with you, I wish you would answer me. I would like to know if it was all game to you. If I ever meant anything to you. Perhaps you are ashamed of what I look like and don't want anyone to judge you about our... whatever it was. If that is true, then I am really disappointed in you. I fully understand, though. I was ashamed of me for a while too. If all the I love yous and so on was ever true or if I was just a means to an end. Someone to make do with till you had better.
Even if that is all I was to you, you unwittingly saved me. I am not angry anymore. I was completely and utterly heartbroken for a while, I know I will make it through and hopefully become a little smarter. I think I am more sad or disappointed than anything. I do miss when we were friends, even if it was all on my side. I will you nothing but the best for your future and hope you find what you are looking for out there.
Always,
Jeannie
I wanted to let you know that I owe you a thank you. Yes, you hurt me but that is life and in the long run, it is your loss. You are missing out on an outstanding, loyal and damn right awesome person. That choice is yours.
I wanted to thank you for dragging me out of the self-imposed exile I had put myself into the year before you came into my life. Thank you for being a friend to me and being hard on me at times. It was what I needed at the time. Thank you for making me realize that yes I am worthy of having happiness in my life.
I will always care for you more than I probably should but you helped save me at a very dark period of my life. I do not know if I would even be here if it weren't for you. Thank you.
I have had some time to think about things. I will be honest and open with you, I wish you would answer me. I would like to know if it was all game to you. If I ever meant anything to you. Perhaps you are ashamed of what I look like and don't want anyone to judge you about our... whatever it was. If that is true, then I am really disappointed in you. I fully understand, though. I was ashamed of me for a while too. If all the I love yous and so on was ever true or if I was just a means to an end. Someone to make do with till you had better.
Even if that is all I was to you, you unwittingly saved me. I am not angry anymore. I was completely and utterly heartbroken for a while, I know I will make it through and hopefully become a little smarter. I think I am more sad or disappointed than anything. I do miss when we were friends, even if it was all on my side. I will you nothing but the best for your future and hope you find what you are looking for out there.
Always,
Jeannie
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